Showing posts from June, 2013

Look for the Little Joys Each Day Brings

Stephanie sent me a link to a wonderful blog post. I have been saving the link in my email and re-reading this post every so often. You can read the entire post here. I have included some of my favorite thoughts below.
I have an idea for you.  Pretend as if you are experiencing everything in life for the first time. Pretend, if only for a few hours, that life is happening on purpose and drink deep.  Look at the members of your family with surprise and amazement. Be glad that they are by your side and enjoy the dance of love that is shared between you. Notice it. Enjoy it.  Watch your spouse while they sleep, or sneak into your child’s room and try to imagine what they are dreaming.  Take a different road on your way home. Explore your neighborhood and look for anything that grabs your attention. Enjoy the uniqueness of each building and its landscaping. Even if the building and landscaping are unattractive, imagine the potential.  Smile at people for no reason. Share the secret of …

Book Review: Lifesigns by Henri Nouwen

This week I have been reading Henri Nouwen's book Lifesigns.  The book builds of Jesus words in John 15 and examines how people can move from living in a constant state
of fear to living in the love of a relationship with Jesus.  Nouwen contends that the majority of people live in some state of fear regarding their lives and the world around them.  By focusing on Jesus words in John 15 we can move from fear into deeper levels of realtionships, fruitfulness and joy.

I find myself in a place of great receptivity to Nouwen on these points.  There are many things to be afraid of in my life right now.  I feel a great anxiousness about the next three months.  I'm focusing all I can on Jesus and living in his love but it is tough at times.  Nouwen says some things in this book that really resonate with me and I believe it was God's providence that I read the book when I did.

Nouwen says that our "if/how" questions reveal to us our fears.

Some of mine include...

- What …

Early Summer Highlights - All in One Day

Today was a great day; one of those days you wish you could bottle up and open again when you need to.  It started with golf at Stonebrooke with one of my best friends.  Later in the day was swimming lessons, then tanning at the Northfield Pool while the kids swam, having a fountain pop with Stephanie, baseball for Jacob, softball with the CANVAS men, and then ice cream with the kids before bed.  It was an amazingly lovely day.
Jacob played his first 'kid pitch' game tonight.  I can hardly believe he is at this point.  The games now have umpires, strike-outs, walks, and all the other baseball rules kids need to follow.  Jacob pitched one inning and did a great job.  He struggled a little bit but he battled through it and he never gave up.  Considering he'd never pitched before I was so happy for him and with his performance.  
My golf game is nothing to blog about but I don't play for the score.  I play because it gives me the chance to talk for a long time with a good…

Change happens. How do you deal with it?

I worked for a company once where the company culture said that the only constant was change.  The older I get the more true that mantra seems to be in describing all of life.  Forms of change come at us all day, every day, month after month, year after year.  There are various intensities of change and each change is unique in the goodbyes it necessitates and the hellos it brings, but change is constantly happening all around us.

Yesterday our church said goodbye to one of its pastors.  We have only been at the church a year, but as a family we have developed great friendships and admiration for this man and his family.  We are sad to see him go, but also excited for this new chapter in their lives and in the lives of our church.

As a family we are discussing what changes we need to make to meet our budget and our long term financial goals.  This involves making decisions about things to buy, activities to be in, and where to live.  The changes that these choices will demand are hard…

Thanks for Being a Part of My Journey

Yesterday I shared a very personal post about how I feel when I'm struggling with depression.  I received lots of encouragement and support on Twitter and Facebook from friends who understand and have gone through some of the same things.  Thank you.

It is amazing how much different the journey is from one day to the next.  Today was a great day, despite the rain.  Maybe it was because I got the chance to hold a bunch of babies today.  It might also be because I was with some of my church family, or because I played baseball with my boys, or because I cleaned out the garage, or because I donated a bunch of clothes, or because I finally made the phone call and had the conversation (separate events) that I've been putting off.

The Bible says that God's mercies are new each morning.  This is such a wonderful promise to the person who is feeling down.  Tomorrow is a new day to start again fresh.  The troubles and sorrows of today don't have to be drug along like an emotio…

Sometimes I Feel Locked Up in My Brain

Warning:  This is a  I don't know why I am sharing it, other than I am hoping it will be in some way therapeutic to me in the writing, and in some unknown way beneficial to someone in the reading.

I have SO much on my mind right now that I feel like I am paralyzed in thought.  The weight of what I'm thinking about is heavy and today I've been feeling really weighed down by it.  That isn't good.  I am quiet and emotionally reserved to start with so having all these questions and thoughts rolling around inside my cranium just cranks it up that much higher.  I can't seem to turn it off.  Every second of calm and quiet my brain fills with critical discussion with itself.  The result is I'm even more quiet, impatient, anxious, and critical than normal - paralyzed in my mind, in a sense.

It blows me away how magnified every little thing is when I feel like this.  I have been blessed (or cursed) with an eye for detail and er…

School's Out for Summer

Another school year in the books, so to speak.

Another year filled with joys, struggles, friendships, fights, homework, homeroom, hot lunches, cold lunches, forgotten lunches, lost papers, great papers, waking up, sleeping in, and rushing to make it on time.

Hard to believe I now have a 1st grader, a 3rd grader, and a 4th grader in my house.

It is amazing how different each one of my kids are as students.  School is difficult for my oldest, a breeze for my middle child, and a great holiday of playfulness and enjoyment for my youngest.  I was always a good student.  School was easy for me, so now I am trying to figure out how to be a support and encouragement to my oldest when he struggles grasping concepts.

I'm grateful for my kids teachers last year.  They have a big task each year, and they did a good job teaching the kids in 2012-2013.  I can't even begin to imagine how difficult, exhausting and trying it is to get 20 young kids focus, eight hours a day.  Hats off to them.