Wednesday night Jacob had a baseball game. Before the game began I was watching the team and it looked like they were a little short-handed on the sidelines so I volunteered to help coach. I started getting pretty into the game and suddenly I realized that I had sort of taken over coaching the boys. After the game one of the coaches came up to me and asked if I could coach Saturday's game because he had to miss for some other activity. I said sure.
Yesterday Jacob played that game and it went fantastic! I had so much fun running the kids through drills before the game, getting the line-up together and coaching kids from down the third base line. I think the kids had a pretty fun time too, winning 10-5! Jacob did awesome; he played catcher and was very solid. He's learning a lot about the position and showing his leadership skills out on the field. He was also on fire in the batter's box and hit two big doubles.
In thinking about it now, I don't know why I didn't sign up to coach. I am not made by God to sit on the sidelines and just watch. I never do well in this role. It is the same thing in church. Some people don't mind attending on Sunday's and just watching it all happen. I have always really struggled with this. I want to be in the game. I want to sit at the table. I want to feel like I'm playing a part in making it happen.
It is how I am wired, and I have to remember that God has put me together to lead, and particularly to play a role in leading his people. I act as a spiritual coach through preaching, teaching and mentoring those around me. I shouldn't hold back or be embarrassed when I have the opportunity to guide and instruct others. Of course I need to do it humbly but I shouldn't ever shrink back, because when I do I am not being true to how God made me and I am not doing what he has called me to do, in the way he put me together.